whooho...trng today was kinda slack...haha.had the project management thingy...sianx...evryone was stucked in tt stupid,stuffy,warm,hot,cafeteria for hours...then...we had to present our proposal...our grp din't even organise who's saying wad..in the end when my turn...my whole leg turnedd stiffed..mental block...tsk tsk...

had those outdorr activities aftwards...was the leader for tt particular game...in the end our grp was last...the external instructor then debriefed us...suddenly i started to doubt my leadership skills...i realised im realli bad at it...so mani things hit me during tt time...i tink i've really not stepped out of my comfort zone...im jus fufilling wadeva someone else wans us to do..im jus forcing myself to show all those leadership skills...sometimes i jus wonder during the course...why did i ever attend such course..knowing tt i'll be exposed to this kinda leadership leader leader thing...i feel so sick and tired of the instructors/ CII's telling us we are leaders CI's to be...feel tt i need a break from all this...i've been exposed to this kinda leadership trng since like..dunno when. and the outcome is still the sAme...i cant be a good leader...

Had dinner at CCk wif part of alpha squad...haiz..feel like we're all drifting apart...haha.had a long time deciding where to eat...lols...will nv forget wad clement said abt the curry kueh...xiang yong: bo bo come up! hahhaha.all of dem all so crap...


...we sweared on this day...

HAppy PTe's day! yeahs..it's the 18th again.
yue ying: dunno will u read this not..but anw...dun think too much alrite? there's really no point holding on to something which will not happen...maybe u jus wanna love her silently and ask for nothing in return..but by doing this..you are hurting yrself...when it's time to let go...let go k...if you need me i'll be there for u =) once PTE forever PTE =)))

sianx...tmr is a all lecture day...lecture marathon...make up lecture at 8am...wth..HAP and maths test tmr...im gonna FLINK FLANK FLUNK my maths...arghx....argh argh argh...

yeahs saturday's coming=)) but it'll be meaningless if he does'nt come...felt dilemna when he said he wanted to quit CI course...hai hai...if he quits...trng w/o him will be so lonely...so lonely...hai...
but if he cont...he'll be unhappy in the sch he doesn't like.ayes ayes....wad am i talking abt..

till then...
chong er fei...

ohhs..yst trng was wonderful...the slackest trng so far...wahahas...finally for once...alpha wasn't late for trng.haha.

reached HTA...huzaifah realised he wore black socks..LOL...panicked in the toilet. then had no choice used fool scap paper to wrap the ankle...ahahahas...in the end..xiang yong sacrifice the top part of his socks and cut it for huzaifa...hahahs.funny sia...there's bound to be funny things happenin to us evry week...

had external instructors/ lecturer to coach us this week...learnt bout social etiqutte...haha..fine dining and our colour profile...nice..was seperated into grps aft tt...sad...played some outdoor games...blah blah blah..atc discussion and blah blah blah...and finally when it was time to go home...the whole alpha squad kena scolding agian...sianx..

it was only some track pants prob and berenice maam shouted till there was echo over the parade square...was shocked...guess alpha's jus unlucky to be the last squad who leaves...humph.
went for dinner at HM till 10 plus...haha.lots of feelings today...hmmms....Fu lin,huzaifa,jordan,me sent yiying home..haha.seems like there's a love triangle...uhhum...suspect tt fu lin likes yiying...haha.so for the whole day...huzaifa wasnt himself at all..."green eyes"...haha.

whehehes..haha.currently in TP's library..conferencing with 3 other classmates on msn...hahahah..they're on level 3 im on level 4...tutorial starting in 45 mins time...haha.had lunch with lao po jus now..ate kueh chap..not bad...long time no talk to her le....

hais hais...

ole ole ole...finally...comp is seriously lagging these few days...argh...

suddenly felt the stress of studying...felt so determine and set to study and die die mus get good grades...i mus and i will try...i've nv felt so determine to study before...maybe a lil last time but not as strong as this...so lets jus see how long this determination will last =)

seems like so many things is gg on...so many things to attend to..but i dunno where to start from...so tired...have been waking up late also..haha..always late for lecture by a few minutes luckily i haf a grp of frens who are also always late...ahha.birds of a feather flock tgt!

it's another new day of the week...set the alarm at 7 today...intend to lie till 7.30 then wake up...at 7.30 told myself 2 more minutes..in the end woke up at 8.08am! and tutorial starts and 9am...was so freaked out...rushed like mad...so afraid i'll be late for tutorial...15 mins late=absent...2 times absent=debarked from exam...scary huh...but in the end i still made it...lady luck was smiling at me...met a grp of my classmates downstairs...haha

had our first SFP lab prac today...haha..all of us had to wear the lab coat and tt hair net...haha.look so pro...and wad we did for the 2 hours plus was measuring sugar.water.oil.flour....dots mann total waste of time...haha but it was fun...

aft yst...felt tt i've changed the way i felt towards this whole thing...it's me tt haf changed...i dunno...but i've to promise myself...i've gotto excel in my studies in this 3 years and at the same time maintain this relationship...3 years...it's a pact made between me him and my parents...pray tt we'll endure and brave thru all odds and obstacles in achieving our goals...=))

De vos enfants exaucez la priere
Veillez sur nous O Saint Pere Barre
Choisissez-vous un essaim d' ouvriere
Par le Seigneur a votre attiree
Dans L 'Institut conservez d' age en age
Un zele ardent, L 'humilite, la foi
Le pur amour, la force et le courage
Pour observer a jamais votre loi
Pour observer a jamais votre loi

missing my sch...miss my IJ life...

phew.....today is the most craziest thing in my whole life....my parent wanted to meet jordan.....so we met up at econ the hawker there...erm...we talked..discussed...abit conflict between him and my mum...think due to the religion thing...jordan did most of the talking....i jus sat there kept quiet...

it was my first time so tan bai and frank to my parent...still shocked at wad happen today...i was so afraid tt..so afraid tt...hais..

conclusion...3 years...they'll put us under a 3 yr test....if aft 3 yrs we're still tgt...they'll gif us they're blessings...but 3 years...

hais...

whhee..gehes!! now in tp library...omigod the facilities are so damn cool....there's a corner with sofas and tvs...then interner access...

did'nt attend morning lecture today...went library to study alone...condusive environment...next lab session only starts at 3...

watched the wild with dear yst at P.S...it was so damn funny...very hilarious...hahaha.especially the koala...the movie content is jus like finding nemo....nothing much to compliment this movie's worth watching unless u wan a great laugh to relieve stress...

ohhs...3 hours of lab session...our very first lab session...haha.kinda excited...

i promise i swear i chop chop i garuntee i confirm...will not skip lecture again....

wheehee...im home! haha. went toa payoh sakura to haf lunch with mum's side today...

see food=eyes big=drools....haha.did'nt ate much cas my stomach was still aslp...haha. the food was damn nice...ohhs...went shopping with cousins and ah yi aft tt..bought two socks and a nice nice sweater! ohhss...i love tt...**thinkin twice abt buying tt giordano jnr's....hehs...

sad...not meetin him today...situation does not allow..both of us will be very bz this whole week....hais hais...so mani hmwrk haven do yet...eekks...plagarism...WTH!!! humph...argh...cant undersatnd dunno huw to do...

yeahs yeahs...woke up at 1 plus today.finally i can slp...haha.

went punggol intchg to meet dear. he was like late for 20 mins..ayess...nvm...went punggol plaza to "study" ya in the end we end up eating and watching the baby show...haha.sat in front of the big plasma tv outside the elctrical shop to watch fingind nemo..hahhaha.

went punggol end aftwards till the sky was dark...kena alot of mosquito bites...walked to intchg and back home agian...ayess...love him!

wuhaha wuahaha!!! i love TP!! hehex...today was lecture marathon! 6 lectures and 5 diff subjects...

went PS to meet dear today...lol..we meet almost evryday..hehex...love him.ate tako ball outside...and he left his IT library bk at the place we ate...it was onli till at SK stattion when he realised the bk was still at PS...LOLS!!! so he panicked and almost cried out...haha.but in the end the bk was still there..$50...haha.

then went to top up EZ link card.my card got stuck in the machine...lol...den asked the person to help...hahahaha.today was damn funny...we laughed and laughed and laughed...got our PoSB card mixed up also...die dunno whose is whose now...ahhahahah.really enjoyed the time we spent tgt...i've nv felt so loved b4....hmms...

tilll then...
CIBTC trng tmr!!!

finally! gosh my comp is lagging.@#%#%$%% humph!

haha.lecture onli starts at 12 today!!so happy.can slp till late late...

went for less than 2 hours of pc orienteering.all we did was chg password and get to know where to get our online notes...sianx..

went TM to meet dear aft lecture...went all the way to lavendar to get his I/C...lol...then went suntec...haha...asked him treat me gelera ice cream he realli treat me..hahaha =))went carrefour..then as usual there'll be pianos/keyboard display...so i went to play..haha.canon in d...funniest thing is tt he too touched ah..lol..shed tears..tsk tsk..haha

aft suntec went back to NYp wif him...gg to meet yiying and jocelyn there while waiting for jor to finish his class..hhaha.we lied to the yiying;s fren tt im their new classmate and they actually believed..haha.yiying class is so fun...not like mine...tsk...

waited for jor then took 72..actually wanted to go home..but in the end we did'nt know where to stop and it was raining so we went back all the way to TM again...LOLS...so damn funny la...then..we went to take neoprint..hahaha.it was funny...

took the 1st machine then din know where to choose the 6 photos..in the end the machine anyhuw choose for us...lol...cannot make it sia...took the other machine ltr on...so he spent like $17..haha...went home aft tt..he sent me home...yupss...haah.it;s very nice of him...=))was very happy yst...

wheheee..im so freezing cold now...currently in tp's lab..haha.nothing to do now..the lecturer allow us to surf the net!!! hahahahahah.cool sia...so cold so cold...arghx...having stomachache..cannot tahan alr...

jus finish some survey...haha evryone's surfing the net on friendster on blah blah blah now...hehe

was npcc day parade yst...yeah CIT's were all called down for duty..and yiying ah.she still thinks we're gg to be the supporting contingent! LOL!!!

haha anw it was fun..had a buffet lunch first..den a briefing for the duties allocation.haha all gals were sent to be the grand stand ushers...majority of the guys were sent to do carpark duties...

ushered the parents and guests to their seats...erm...abit dunno wad to do cas it was our first time...yeah and we had other CI's ( not trainees) with us..and from wad yiying said..some of them were like despising us..making negative comments on our uniform..pls la...i personally think our uniform is like 100% better den some of them!!! WTH...so wad if our rank now is only a drill cloth...bleahx! wait till i become the parade commander or flag party or contingent commander!!
and i swear i will..hahaz

the parade was nice..but the dance was abit...jus think it shld'nt be there...haha...so messy.and the dancing cadets were all dragging their shoes making irritatting noises...anw...really honoured to be ushers in the grand stand..HAHA.cas we sat and watch thru the whole parade.and i think tt official tag is so cool. it's $10 for 1.haha.

were only dismissed at ard 9 plus i think..cas we had to carry boxes and boxes of mineral waters..and it was heavy/ok...took bus with alpha squad home then...

till then
shen ming shi chou lou de! hahahahah

tired tired tired...last day of orientation!! went down early to practise da cheer...haha.was late but early...haha.cant wake up...had a final something between all the diff course in AS(Applied science)...it was water bombing...haha.we had to bomb the big loliipop made of newspaper till it breaks...hhaa.had alot of fun throwing bombs to other grps...


had also telematch between all the diff schs...IT..biz...engin...des..haha.gosh we really cheered like there was no tmr...tt kinda of feeling was undescribable...everyone was so high and enthu...guess Tp's really good in cheering.lols...


went over to bedok reservior.it was like next to Tp only...haha.it was the starting of Regatta. consisting of dragon boating and cheering competition...woah the few of us really cheered like mad...the whole stage was vibrating..but in the end we still lost to design sch..=)
ard 7.45..went to sports complex..it was the JAM AND HOP!!! omg!! it was totally like clubbing..they were like stopping some ppl to check the clothe and bags..had to walk in and the hall was spilt into the dancing flr by a big board...the lights were all so damn cool and there was like a live band! with the instruments and all..damn cool. the few of us...mainly gals jus kept jumping and jumping along wiith the music..lol...it was so fun..


went Tm again to meet him.i was apparently late..haha..met al-lene coincidently haha...yup den he send me home agian aft dinner.....=) pity the ez link $$...tmr's npcc day...gotta go down for duty..hais hais...yeah can meet alpha squad agian =)))


till then
i've got so much thing to prepare for tmr...


A.S WILL WIN THE WAR!!!
A.S WILL WIN THE WAR!!!
A.S WILL WIN THE WAR!!!
i love TP! i love AS!!!

gosh im so tired today...was alr half dead when we reached tP...met izzudin at the sk bus stop...hhaha..learnt mass dance today!!! mann it was so damn nice and fun...especially the moves ans song..."open open clap clap.."haha

gonna have cheer competition tmr...shld'nt haf been so enthu and loud on the first day...kena choosen by our grp OL to go...tot was only jus shout shout loud loud can alr...
who noes!!gotta stay back aft the whole thing to practise the actions...mann..the actions are...urgh...i cant do it...im not tt kind tt can shake and twist...omigod...will be "performing" in front of the whole sch!..mama....urgh urgh...the guys are too over enthu...no comments...

end off at like 7.30 plus plus...went TM to meet jor-egg. had LJS for dinner...went arcade...played (he) some spiderman game...LOL ! haha. so cute...accompanied me home again...hahas........................................................................................ya...dunno wad to say...really enjoyed the time spent wif u...

yeahs! went for orientation today neh! met up wif clarice...haiyo...tt gal ah..late late late...missed 2 buses...so many ppl...anw..orientation was both fun and boring...the year 2 OL really did put alot effort in organinsing this and decorating the lecture rm...our grp was suppose to be vampire...and our enemy--lycan..yup...

haha.played games and all lahx...nothg special...had some water balloons game...and NOT FAIR!! im the one who always tio the most. kena pour on the most...maybe tt's my retribution lah...haha...for saboing ppl with my GREAT IDEAs!

yeah...my class has a no..of 23 ppl. 20 gals and 3 guys!!! hahaha.poor them...anw...met up with jordan at tampines mall aft orientation...simply jus walked ard the whole of TM...then...he send me home...took bus no3 with me all the way to punggol...yupss...it was a loonnnggg journey=)


my internet is seriously lagging...humph! grrk!


till then..i love my OL and my blog song!

ohh gosh...i cant go back to my slp now...he broke with his gf...omg...omg...
how come...all the things tt yiying said and predicted came true!! gosh...

yea today's PTE day!!! happy PTE day big bird!! erm...16 months liao huh? think so..haha. huw time flies...

freaked out when i realised it was the 18th today! which means tt orientation's tmr! grrks...don feel like gg..no mood to go...and shucks..i haven settle my ez link stuff yet...gotta force myself to go cp interchg as well as swensens to get my $$$.hehe.sianx...tmr will be start of my poly life...hais...agree wad jocelyn said in her blog..ij friends cant follow u forever..we've to step out of our comfort zone. yup...be thankful tt clarice is in the same course as me...hope we'll end up in the same class also...hahax...

arghx** heartbreak!!! all my files are gone!! wtf***..arghx!!! those are my hardwork...hais...

tell me wad shld i do...im too lost in the world of relationship...yst night was too much for me...and i dun think im dreaming..*slaps* no im not...it really did happen to me! yes me!

but no matter wad...before he settles his own relationship stuff...im not gg to give him a definite answer...

a friend is like a bridge over troubled waters...where are u...?

went to play pool today with alpha squad..not all came thou...but it was fun.didn't actually wanted to go...but huzaifah kept calling me to go...cas if i go he can see yiying ma...lol...

played pool...haha.funny.alpha squad is always funny full of craps...especially when huzaifah is with yiying tt time...

hais...so troubled now..wad shld i do...hais...hais..hais...only yiying can understand what im gg thru...i can even make a mind map out of our situation! lols...

sad...dad reformatted the whole comp!!! and it's like so many things are gone!!! hais....all the photos i took..i cant live w/o those memories...tsk tsk...hais...talking to jordan on hp now...dunno wad to talk...talk crap...feel so weird...hais...

shall stop here...hais

was suppose to meet alpha at 7am today at hougang intchg. but i tot was 8 am so at 6.45...yiying called me and say i was late...jumped out of my bed sia. hurry rushed down to meet yiying and the rest.lol.we were not the last.heng ah...

went a long way.stopped at causeway point to buy breakfast.went to HTA and we were late. brava..charlie...delta was alr all fall in le....got scoldings from amanda maam...hais..we mus haf disappoint her alot...

went to classroom immediately we started our test.haha.was quite easy for me...yup aim to get A+++.hehes...aft tt had footdrill test...

woah...marched sooOOo damn long...hardly have anytime to breathe...felt like vomitting...lols...had the MOI aftwards...so dry...went causeway to have our dinner with alpha...
felt so bonded at this dinner.no words can describe this...went to take neoprints...played arcade...and not forgetting the rest of the guys playing tricks...walao eh and me and yiying really believed....

two shocking things i heard today....
1) abt some guy called adrian...
2)somebody like my gd fren!

wahahahahahs.alpha..for consecatively 9 days....9 whole days...we see one another evryday....those scoldings and hardship we went thru...nothing can describe it...


some nice quotes tt i've gotten from the course
-evrybody has a part to play in doing our best in evrything
-a chain is only as strong as it's weakest link & it applys to a team
-it is not the result of what you can achieve in dis camp whereas it's the process we can enjoy
-teamwork is not working with someone whom u can work with, it's abt working with someone you can't work with
-a friend is like a bridge over troubled waters
-it's not wad kind of card you get, it's how u play them

i love squad alpha J06....

yeahs!!!! im back from CIBTC...it was like hell and sometimes heaven in hell...learnt soOOOOOooo many things to become a good Ci...though the course was physically and mentally tiring..but i've nv regretted gg. 7 days and 6 nights...yes! we survived!!!

was in alpha group with yiying.felt so happy!!!actually it was majority area 7 ppl.lol.

day1
nothing much...tekan tekan and tekan....our group was ALPHA!!! and surprisingly there was only 3 gals and 13 guys....and the whole batch had only 14 gals out of 60 plus guys...

dAY 2
kena the one to say the npcc pledge...start of PT and mass run...uni inspection...tons of lecture...

day 3
Pt and Pt run and run...so tiring...wan to die liao...then had baton drill...blah blah blah

day 4
was very happy alr..cas it was alr the 4th day!!!! did armsdrill! and guess wad we used the rifle M16...cool sia. it was heavy at first but still we haf to tahan. the CII's took the rifle as if the rifle was only 0grams...after that had sword drill lesson. was so happy! cas it was ceromonial sword!!!! was the first time holding it...so excited =)) did those saluting and drills with the sword...was really very happy tt we get the chance and privilege...

day 5
did rifle drill agian and had dry shoot with the .38 revolver.learnt first aid also...

day6
was even happier cas we can finally say one more day left!!!!!had armsdrill and dry shoot again...sians...learnt more commands for the rifle drill.

day 7
it's day 7 !!!! evryone jus cant wait to go home...had the live shoot today. 30 rounds. 10 rounds on rectangle target at 9m. 10 rounds in rectangle target at 15 m. 10 rounds on bullseye target. was very scared and stress at first did not did up to my expectation. scored 3 bullseyes! yeah=)) think i had the highest number of bullseye. yiying had like 16 bullet in the rectangle target!!! psycho one her....wahahah at least we did better than the guys!

will definitely miss this CIBTC...washing clothes evry night...having constipation...waking up evryday at 4.30 am to polish boots and ironing uniform..then 6 am do PT run like mad.our hair was nv dried most of the time. imagine jogging and marching evrywhere we go!! and home team academy is like so damn BIG!

overall...i really enjoyed the course and our squad ALpha/ sisters squad with tt act cute action.

4th of april...today's the 5th month since tt day...it was 4am when evrything changes...

it was my fault...we shld'nt have even started at first...i shld'nt even have liked you this kind of person...it was my fault...i brought this kind of regret upon myself...now this regret will stay with me for the rest of my life...

shld i think tt this a regret? or shld i say..im a fool for tt past 5 months for trusting and loving him so much and i died without knowing the reason...the only words tt he cld say was..sorry...sorry...sorry...and it jus end of like this....im such a fool....

papalapapalalalalalalalala

how many more days to CI course? i dun wanna know.
have been polishing and polishing and polishing my precious boots so tt it'll SHINE!
argh....stupid..it just shine abit. not up to my expectation.

shall send my boots to extreme makeover! *nuts...there's no such thing...

hais hais hais...face up to reality mann...it's doomsday.so regret i broke my name tag 2 years ago...arghx...stressed up.

8 days more...hais...

went msia yst. bought a bag and shoe. spent most of my time looking for camp stuffs...stress.wonder how's yiying doing now.haha.she has started polishing her boots..and god bless me. i haven even started polishing mine. will polish ltr. if not..it's doomsday on the 8th.im having giant butterflies in my stomach now...arghx...

grrAa! so many things to do and buy.just for that 7 days. *sigh* but there's so lil time. how to polish a whole new boots to shine with just 8 days? lol. 4 years the boots stills shine like shit.

[[stressed up]]

hais.went a long way to HTA home team academy with yiying to collect Ci uni...nomore PA...was late by 10 mins...and we got scoldings from the CI's...went up to pass up the forms..felt so stressed up alr.it has been so long since someone scolded us.haha.collected the uniforms.so nice!love it.

hais...there'll be a residential course..which is 7 DAYS IN HTM.yea.stay and camp in HTm for 7whole days!!!!! one week!!!shit...it's 7 days of torture!!!surely get tekan and tekan and tekan.i jus shudder at the thoght of this.
so many things to do.gotta buy track pants and shirts tt will last for 7 whole days..10apr--16apr...sianx...it's practically from monday to sunday...arghx!=( besides this still got 4days3nights camp at pulau ubin during june...hais hais hais...im feeling so depress now.


i dunno how am i gg to survive these 7 days...i mus do my best.i mus endure all tortures.jus hope evrything goes well....hais

till then...BRAVE ALL ODDS!

OMG!!! yiying and me got into CI course!!! gosh. im so happy.so so so happy! thought we'll not get in due to late submission.

=)))so happy=)))

phew..im soSo so tired and exhausted.im tan again!it's gonna be a long entry...=))
my face felt as if i jus came out from a oven.it's so red and black.*hot*hot*

believe it ornot i woke up at 6.20 today.it's a achivement.wahahahs.went to sch.it was the FINALS OF CAMPCRAFT COMP TODAY!!! met up with dear and laopo.surpprisingly our snrs came too!!!vanessa..sua gu kia..sok cheng..gwen..phili..boon.wha!so many of them came.
went to police academy.the old one.*will miss it...P.A is shifting soon.sobs.guys team was first.so we waited like so damn long la!under the hot and scorching sun.thx veron.she brought two 1.5litres of 100 plus.she really "saved" our lives!!!the weather was so damn bloody HOT!!!grr...finally aft the long wait.it was the girls team=))we cheered like there was no tmr.we were all screaming our lungs out...hahahas.especially sua gu kia.it was sort of a "stress releasing session...."hahahaha.the other schs will probably think we're crazy or something.the jnrs were all so DEAD! seems like only NCOs and snr NCOs were cheering.....*shrugs


finally aft a looooonnnnngggg wait...the results...emss it was ok.team A got in 5th place and team B got in 9th place out of all the 10 teams.gals...u really did yr best.im proud of u all.to emerge top 10 among 132 schs is alr VERY gd!!!but it was funny...the prelimary rounds result was the same as the finals.HAHAHAHAHAH.think it's so xie men or something.

went to jack place to have our lunch cum gatering.waited so long.cas we had 9 ppl.hahaha.im so happy today!created quite alot of Centre Of Attraction there...the manager was very gd.long story...ohhs..there's a cute waiter over there.ahha agreed by yvonnne.yeah.hehes.this lunch session really brought back all of us tgt again.i felt really happy and proud to haf all of them as my sqdmates=))we talked abt the past.we laughed tgt...i really love them alot alot...


went to awards ceremony aft tt.went up to stage and blah blah.thats not the whole point.haha.gosh.this seems like a reunion day for me.majority of our cohort came back.mostly were in JCs...seeing them in their JC uni..looking back our past...hugged one another and all.evryone was so elated to see evryone.


then comes the performance...yeah.showed some history of SJC.then performance by NPCC and St john.hahaah.it was so hilarious in the beginning.it was a combined fancy drill with rifle.it was so damn nice.me and sandy were like cheering and screaming like mad!

then had performance from fencing..indian dance..choir..band(woah i think they rawk!!)em...and angklung...and it was like OMG! they played my fav song "if we hold on tgt"!!!and the grand finale.(as usaual) they sang the hold on to our dreams with GG doing hand sign.
todays performance was awesome!!!3 cheers to them!felt really happy to be in the part of SJC...=))

woah...tiring day.have been helping out with the household chores.went SGH today with mom and bro.
yea cant wait for saturaday to come.3 big events.campcraft comp.my reunion with squad and awards ceromony.im gonna wear back my sch u.cas the dress code is DRESS OR SKIRT AND BLOUSE.NO JEANS!wth...wads the point of making it so formal...cant even wear jeans.mus wear skirt?chey i den dun wan.
cutt my hair 2 days ago.woah i like it.feels so light now.whehee...will be washing clothes when im bored =))

yst night was horrible...was soSOso depress...shant talk abt it

went medical check up at bugis raffles hospotal today.haha.it was fun.it was not so-into-detail
even yvonne agrees to it.ahaha.took x-ray.the gowm simply looks like we're gg to spa session.haha.it was so open.there were like no
guys one side and gals one side kinda thing.so me and von had to wear tt stupid gown and sit outside to wait.weird sia.even the toilets are unisex...

went LJS aftt.then shopping!
walked almost the whole bugis street.bought a skirt and two tops.went terra cafe to look for tiang.and omg rachael's in CJ...tt's kinda weird.
but i like CJ...hais.but cant get in...hais...

tmr's *** **** bdae...he mus be so happy cas there's a she with him...=)

sobs...jus came home from airport...my eyes are red.
my maid has gone back home...hais..sad...
10yrs...ever since i was pri one all the way till now...
sad...jus cant control my tears...hate this kindA parting session.cant stand it...

yawnss...sleepy...
went back sjc npcc with sandy today.she thought i wld be late..so i rushed like mad
in the end she was the one who was late---by 10 mins!
helped out abit with the flagstaff...but did nothing much in fact.were jus observating them
went cp for lunch aft tt.felt tt kind of sqdmate bond...ee..so nice...will be gg to eat vegetarian dinner tonite.=)
HAPPY PTE DAY!

ayes...this blog song: if we hold on tgt...i think it's SO SO SO duper nice.it brings back lot memories...sang it so many times durring campfire...

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by, for you and I...

lunch with cheryl today at jack's place.there were no ppl at all when we stepped in.it was so quiet.felt like some high class restaurant.it was so cosy.
then went abit of window shop.crapss loads in the libray.haha with the topic on breast cancer and insomnia.borrowed a book on sleeping.hhaaha.
went kovan aft tt to buy my fbt....to my horror! they dun sell it anymore.was kinda depressing. haha but cheryl said depression will affect yr sleep.so i decided not to be depress...lol

bought 16 small friendship cards for my sqdmates=)intending to write some things on dem for dem.haha
yea..in 50 min time.it'll be PTE day =)

first day of sch holi...but to me...evryday's holiday.wahahas.


bored to tears...bored to death...
argh...yiying's so busy nowadays...
hais
bored

arh....so bored so bored....bored to death...

21 months up.yea gonna upgrade my phone

urgh.i wan tt motorola v3i
it's so perfect flat

IM BORED TO DEATH!!!

sch starts in like...i month plus!
ohh...guess i jus haf to find my lao po...
SPCA's not a bad idea...lol.

at least i'll get to be with pets...(when i've alr got one at home)
she's a prettie...











bored to tears..bored to death..

im having serious insomnia again.i slp when the sun rises...
playing miss calling games with wee meng again...lol

yes_miss call once
no_miss call twice...

lol

heee

future nutritionist/dietician, i m here to blog! haha... actually food science is not as bad as i said and what we thought of it ah, u can work in the hospital and who knows hor, u will marry a doctor sia! in case u people think that how come carmen wong is so mad as to post such things about herself, this is joyce who is blogging and hacking her account...haha, and yah! i havent scold u yet, why u steal my pictures ah! no big no small.. i m da-jie u know! u younger than me, should respect me mah.. still have the cheek to tell me u kapo the pictures!! hmph! i dont want to upload anymore pics le.. later u kapo somemore! erhhhhh... haha, just joking lah, i will still upload pictures BUT CONFIRM WITHOUT U IN IT!! hmph! haha.. bleahx

it's a miracle..i woke up at 11am today.yea.thx to dan...

called me to let her come my hse study.hehs.

she din really study lah..hahaz.

aft tt went hougang mall..shopped a lil while went food court.she study while i ate chicken rice..hehess.
met boon,zhen and phillicia outside kfc.went to cp aftwards…
and weird..we went back to kfc.but it was cp ones…

haha really really very fun.we talked abt almond…sch stuffs..and suddenly!

The song stupid mistake was played..
Argh.and dan suddenly blurt out tt I liked ** before!!
Omg…argh…but nvm! I regretted tt.

Ohh.ch 8 is showing some show tt has food science now!!arhh!it looks so fun.hmm…I mus study hard…

真爱...

ohh...im practically slacking at home.sleep..watch tv..eat..yeah.
im addicted to class 95 fm...spent all my sleepless nights listening to it.waiting and waiting for nice songs to be played..i love class 95...
kaes..im so looking forward to open sch..will be gg to a all new environment.meeting new ppl and making new friends...but im more excited to find out more abt my course.FOOD SCIENCE...yeah.i've promise myself...i'll do my best and study hard for this course.then in 3 yrs time...i'll be able to go university.i must excel in this course and obtain a diploma.yes! kampatei!!! i must work very very hard.endure for 3 yrs...=))
lols...but aftall action speaks louder than words huh...

till then
slacker's talking

yeah!!!jus received msg from yue ying!BOTH TEAMS GOT INTO FINALS!!!!oh yeah!!!=)) so happy for them!alritess!!


hmms...im very confuse now...shld i or shld i not appeal...3 days ago i've made up my mind to appeal..then the next day i've made up my mind not to appeal.then next day i wanted to appeal.and now...i dunno whether to appeal or not...i don mind doing food science..but the career..is..."hard" i shld say.


feel like appealling to nanyang business management...arghx...so confuse..so fan...
wad shld i do...??? it's my future im dealing with now...i don wanna regret somewhere when im old...xx argh xx

shucks! i've gotten into FOOD SCIENCE @ TP !!!

THERE GOES MY BIOMED WITH YY! anw..she'll be gg nanyang..hais...so many ppl gg nanyang.so many ppl gg tp...hais...i feel like crying now knowing tt i'll be seperated from yiying and gg to tp food science all alone....*sobs sobs....and i have ppl ( like joyce?!) telling me tt i'll be working in fast food in my future?!!!??! arghx...im sad sad sad sad sad sad....devastated!

guess i'll jus have to give in to fate...

went suntec today.the career and education fair...it was..ok la.abit boring.there were so many universities both local and overseas.went to foodcourt to have some snacks first.apparently MISS LIOW YIYING took so long to come suntec to meet us.took like 30 mins to bathe? super long queen.

worst still she din know how to walk to carrefour..in the end walked all the way back to the convention centre to find her...ohhss.saw peilian too.went pastamania to eat.it was total madness..spend 3/4 of our eating time laughing =))

thx to our dear yiying.had some pizza left..so we played a game to see who eat the pizza.it was pathetiq..most of the pizza came to me...and it was all distorted..the fillings and the dough was "divorced".just bcas yiying has braces she forced me eat her pizza crust...lols...feel like les feeding each other...LOLS.

went toy r'us...all of us bought a rose..it was a pretty rose...our friendship token?!hhaha.anw this rose will be a memo of our friendship...no matter how distanced we r from one another...we'll still be the best of the besterest of friends

gosh!2 more days to the posting results....ohm...god bless...amithaba...pray pray pray..i'll get in biomed @ SP...arghx..when will this o level thingy end?!

waiting for o's results..waiting for posting...

somehow i agree with wad jocelyn said...we are too young to decide wad course now cas it's gonna be our future.

c'mon!it's like deciding yr future at the age of 16?! honestly i had a hard time choosing the courses..it was a very clear cut thing that i'll either choose science or business...i've no interest in engineering or media thingy..

and they gave like only 6 days for us to choose?!for those who had wad they want in mind since they started schling.gd for them...but for ppl like me?

ok that was a history.cld only pray hard tt i'll get into biomed now...ohm...OHM...

somehow i miss working..lol.actually i miss the single scoop...soup and gossiping with my colleages....hehehx.yst...smsed with wee ming alot alot..cant understand he's sms language...lols.sony ericsson phones are nice.so many ways of typing msges!wahahahs.hahas.almost died of laughter.

off to pray.....

yeahs!love todays supper.diyanah father came to fetch me to cp.then met the rest of the ppl.took cab to bukit simpang with maam firda..alice..and diyanah...reached there.woah.the table was super long!there was a total of ard 30 ppl.part-timers and full timers..mostly were present.ok.time to ordered...we(7 ppl) ordered as if the food was free.lets see.we ordered...steak.bone stick.chicken wing and fries.chilli sotong.black pep prawn.roti john.bundung mee.omelette.milo dinosaur.juices...blah blah.augustine ate like there was no tmr.the best part is we dun even need to pay a cent=))the cab $$ was also sponsered by swensens.so i practically paid 0.00 for this supper.it was great having evrybody tgt.it's the happiest moment i ever had in swensens..the total bill only add up to 280+ yup.30 ppl--the amt..sat sir raymond car home aftwards with diyanah and wee ming.im really very happy today...=))


If you love someone, put their name in a circle instead of a heart, because hearts can break, but circles go on forever






from left: Wee ming ( housefly)... Leonice (sista)...me













my ice cream mates!

oh yea!went bugis today!=))

bought the things i wanted.not all thou.things i've yearned for so so long.ppl who went: yiying..jocelyn..sailatha..liyun..joyce.met joanna dar..eunice dear and mallory in the train today.wohaha.we acted like long lost fren..went parco bugis and all.walked and walked..aft tt went terra cafe to find kim.haha.fated.she was working.yup.saw chen wei lian shooting some songs there.ya it was CHEN WEI LIAN.tt superstar.woah!cool.

had a poll to see whether to eat at terra or swensens..yeah.of cas.swensens won.haha.went to have the outrageous sundae.2 topless 5 and 2 banana split.had a hard time choosing the 16 flavors.heehee.guess wad..while eating..chen weilian and one of the superstar guy came in.ahaha.yea.im surprised atthe fact tt there was'nt any fans or ppl ard him tking photos or wanting his photogragh.

went to bugis street aftwards.yeah!i've bought the bag i wanted!bought a white nail polish also.white rawks.ltr on..went back to parco to buy my billabong flip flops.alritess mann! spend less than 50 in total.not forgetting the neoprints we took,ice cream $$ and takopachi.hhehee.

shopping adds colour to my life man!

supper at 11.30 ltr!at bukit simpang with ice cream mates.

big bird: hey...it hurts me to see you like this...you're a very very gd fren and PTE...and i don wish to see you like this...maybe yr love for her is jus so so so deep that it cant even be remove.i cant be at sch now with you alr...wadeva happened to this 15 yr old gal...once so innocent and simple...maybe i cant understand wad u're gg thru..breaking down evry now and then...hais...dunno wad to say to you also.

will always be here for you if u need me =))
anw..this song is dedicated to you =))

yawnss...slept at 5.30am..woke up at 7.15am...got a shock when i woke up.tot i was late..met up wif yiying to have breakfast at LJS..the breakfast was so delicious..but it was late.so we ate the hashbrown and dabao the rest...walked to sch and waited for the bus to bring us to PA(police academy)the bus was late...so ya.sat in 2 circles and prayed.had chocolate feast ah.ya.felt so happy coming to sjc npcc.jnrs did very well for the campcraft comp.im soo proud of dem.hope tt both teams can get into finals.went to cp kfc aft comp...having cramps..arghx.i cld only say i treasure the moment with all of you...gawd noes when can we meet up like tt agian.

to dan: hey sry..cant play squash with you today..cant go punggol end with you...=(really sry =)















...i feel so distance with you...

arghx...stomachache...slept at 5.30am yst.woke up at 9 plus...den 12 plus..then 1 plus...then 2 plus...then 4pm.=))pro sia...went work..heehee.guess i was lucky today.had many fries and rodeo wings.maybe i was too lucky...accidently spill the banana crumble banana.and evrything was on the floor...the caramel and banana.ARGH!my gosh.tt small area was practically flooded...

anw gg to the campcraft comp tmr..all the best ppl

behind these hazel eyes...

ohh...im gg to go shopping one of these days mann...will be using my pay..

alritess...this saturday...will be either doing...

plan 1
play squash with dan
aft tt she'll come my hse and study and slp(my bed is nice to slp)
then go punggol end

plan 2
go for the campcraft comp...
yiying is probably gg too

arghs..mama which one...i wanna go support big bird...aftall it's campcraft comp..moreever yiying will be gg also...

anw...i've planned my week.

sunday
will be playing badminton with joyce...yiying..cherly..latha..jocelyn..
yeah=))will be at cherly hse downstair...so it does'nt matter cas my hse is near to hers


and between now and then...till i see you agian..i'll be loving you...





ohh...at yoshi with lao po..sharing tt stupid jelly

feel like crying now...hais...i miss sch.
i miss 4faith..miss evrybody...jus flip thru my SPO ( students personal organiser) there is so so so many things inside...so many things i've wrote over the yr.

memories left by yueying...yiying...weikang...yvonne lao po...joanna darling...camilla...shih han...haha.still can rmb him eh.haha.

really hope tt i can get into SP-biomedical with yiying and camilla...such a coincedence..camilla also chose this course...

worked from 12-3 today..3hours only...ate banana cum apple crumble aft work.oh and a firehouse too...aft tt i drank a bowl of soup.ate raspberry cum melon yogurt fruz...wad a sumptous...erm..sumptous..."high tea"...haha.kamalia was nice...she knew it was my last wk working..so she treated me to the yogurt.=)) thx...

listening to shan hu hai now...feeling abit depress now...had a talk with leonice jus now abt ppl in swensens...HAHHAA...she said something tt made me abit happy..but god knows wad tt person is thinking...hais...anw will not be seeing tt person anymore..

no more...

hmms...this will be my last week working in swensens...have told my manager tt i wanna quit...

50% of qutting is cas of the pay.
25% is cas of some ppl.
15% cas i get to spend lesser time with my family and friends.
10% cas of the work tt we need to do.

yup...but aftall i'll miss alot of my colleagues there...hais...heard tt there's such a law: those under 17 caught loithering ard aft 11pm will be given a warnig letter by the police...haha.weird.but cool.was paisehed at work today cas of....

uh huh...weird dreams appearing again.i was trembling when i woke up...the dream started like this...i was suppose to be working in swensens.but i was slping behind.then i went out to macs to eat with..erm...wk...ya tt jerk.i dreamt of him..then somebody said to hurry up leave cas some dangerous ppl are coming.and the next thing i saw was me running in the sch carpark and meidan,kwai was suppose to be the bad ppl.uh huh.so far so weird!then some police came and guess wad.adeline lau was one of them and she protected me.lols.meidan and the other accomplice had gun.so the police and them exchanged a few shots.then the next thing tt happen was meidan asked me to dance with her.the dance we use to dance.?i wonder wad izit.haha.then while we were dancing half way..her accomplice shot me in my back.i dropped down and had my last breath..miracally at my last breath i perked up.i wanted to write a letter to my parents before i die.i wanted to call them before i die.hahahaha.we were sort in a lift or something.my cousin gave me a paper and pen to write down..i knew i was gg to die.but i still cld walked and talk?!!?haha.asked the doctor if i were to have a operation now will i die?he replied yes...the last scene was me gg for operation and everybody was ard me.i told them i wanted the sch song to be played at my funeral.we said the angel pray and i cried..caz aft this operation i may not wake up.the last thing tt was done was fat needles gg thru my back.uh huh...haha.this whole dream felt so real.when i woke up i realised huw precious life is and im afraid of dying..i imagined ppl attending my funeral..also i realised huw much i love my sch...(for the sch song to be played during my funeral?!!?)

jus came home from fu hui.had charity dinner today.went to do help out.yiying and wan nee was in the same grp as me too.heehee...this yr again..one table was empty so gd la.we had a chance to eat...vegetarian food is nice...saw a series of performance...the emcee was bryan wong.wang lu jiang.ya.so cool....1st time see him live.haha.anw todays PTE day.18th feb.16 months le i think...big bird's bz...hais...nvm..wonder is he there today...

lol.went for typhoid injection today.was so sos sooosooOO scared.ok.i don deny tt i have phobia for injections.i can feel the pain jus imagining it!asked alice to follow me up to raffles medical.thx.she had to sacrifice her break time jus to accompany me.so nice of her...

anw..went up.went in.i was terrified by then.my hands were sweaty and cold.then i sat down reluctantly.haha..then the doc inject lo..haha.i was scarign myself..before i knew it he was done..jus felt a prick and nthg else...good!

haha

till then
humph!she is soOO bias against me.she did dat on purpose!i hate her...

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.

Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?

I'll find my way
Through night and day,
'Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven.

Time can bring you down,
Time can bend your knees.
Time can break your heart,
Have you begging please, begging please.

Beyond the door,
There's peace I'm sure,
And I know there'll be no more
Tears in heaven.

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong
And carry on
,'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.


this song jus..jus...i love it...

im online again.gg work ltr..haiya.today untill 11pm..sians.this whole wk( oh i shld have used WEEK instead of WK,,,im sensitive to the word "WK" ya)

yiying's brother currently missing!ya missing..so dunno whether are we still having lunch at jack's place not.jay chou's sons are all so nice..it somehow bring backs memory.so fast..i've leave my sch.it's the year 2006 now and i've jus submitted my future.ready to enter my next phase of life.hais.nobody knows wad the future holds for us.

!!! i've finally sign up for the course!!!

omg...it's soO unbelivable mann..

argh!!!im very scared i'll regret wad i put...

1st choice: Biomedical at SP
2nd: Biomedical at TP
3rd: Biomedical Science at NP

the rest inclusive of Business and media studies and Food science..opted of chinese studies and mass comp too...thru the tt thing..argh..wad if i regret...hope i'll get into the 1st choice i want.cas yiying gg also..actually wanted business..but mom said im too innocent.the business world is cruel and evil?!haha..gosh.it's like typing and submitting ur future!!!!ekkss!!!!arh!!!

gosh..pray hard both me and yiying will get into the course..hais=(

ohh.anw todays valantine's day!!!!ohh..as usual i slept til 3 in the aftnn.heehee.went to wokr at 5.swensens is so nicely decorated with heart balloon.the queue was SOOOOOOOOOOO long...it was SOOOOO tiring..woah.90% of the ppl were couples..out of the 90%--10% were students..mostly JC's..haha.so rich worh..heehee

till then
pray

great!!!

i've finally got back my results!!!

ok..it sucks

L1R5---23(it's like?!!)

L1R4---12(oh yea!!!=))

finally the kind of feeling tt keep u in suspense is gone!!went cp for lunch b4 results..i love tt moment.half of 4F was like there and all were in sch u.centre of attraction.haha.we took mani mani pics.I LOVE 4F!!!we were sOO bonded.and oh ya amanda gave us this beautiful piece of friendship stuff.and cherly gave me this keychain tt she made.ohh...my classmates are all soo sweet.hais...but this is our last gathering as a whole...sad..

ohh anw..went for work at 5 plus...hate work today!hate u especially.y are u always so bias against me?!i seriously dun understand!so wad if u are a*****.humph!!

ok back to my o's result
Eng--b3
Combined humans--b3
Mathematics--a2(omg!!! i got A for maths when i always faill maths one!!!!)im satisfied
Biology--c6(hais)
Science(phy/chem)--c6(hais)
Chinese--b3
Chinese oral--dist=))

ok...say it's lousy..say im stupid for getting 2 c6..but i really regretted not studying sciences more properly..but i did really try my best for bio

our sch gave us this cd..omg it's nice ok...there's the prom night..youth day performance with all those mini videos our tchers did..all the graduating class...hais..it's so nice..i will defintaly treasure this cd....

till then
SIMPLE IN VIRTUE
STEADFAST IN DUTY

work was boring today..patially due to the sleepiness in me..woke up in the morning..my eyes was abit red and wet.dreamt of my o's result.and it was bad.cried terribly.

went to chinatown again aft work with yiying.went there cas she needed to buy something which she dunno wad thing( which is in fact the wall sticker?!)dots dots.went there also cas we wanted to eat jiao zi and yam cake.simlpy love the yam cake.went to coffee bean and sat there til 7 plus i think.the environment was nice.shall go there next time agian..

ok serious business..

o's result is out tmr!

i dunno.

i dun wish to think abt it

woke up at 11 plus today.went swimming with yiying at 2.jus love the sun.got a nice tan.till now my face and shoulder are blushing red.heehe.cld have tan more but gotta work at 5.anw in the end still late.ran in swen.was ok today..except i felt tt idah had something against me.dunno y...went home..nose bleed again.mum said i was too heaty.(really?)i hope so.cas in drama when ppl nose bled frquently they die in the end..

till then..
im watching too much drama

ok...results are really on friday!!!!

arh!!!!!!

im really gonna score badly and all.!!#%##$^^

shit!

arh!!!!!when i think of it...

i've no appetite
gonna puke..

pray hard ppl
pray for me
pray for you
pray for everyone

ok.it all started with the wind!it blew my memo board on the floor.then,some badges dropped on the floor.and i din'nt knoe it.happily i walked to the door and then...i stepped on the anti drug abuse badge.the poky poky thing practically got stuck in my feet.i look at it in astonishment.mum was like aiyo aiyo then she faster pull it out for me.the feeling was...i saw blood oozing out,felt the pain.thought of ppl saying wad will happen if u step a nail.(u will probably die?)took a look at the nail to check for rust.felt like fainting alr at tt point of time so i saw only blood on th nail.felt tt i was gg to faint,told my mother i was gg faint.tt was my last words(miraclely,the song shan hu hai was still in my head).when i woke up,all i cld hear was my name and medical oil..ohh and the song accidently in love.cas it was still playing on my comp.felt pain on my head.haha like duh.obviously.cant believe i really fainted alritess.so dramatic.

till then
my feet hurts
my head hurts
hope i'll not die

slept at 4 plus am...dunno y..jus cried and cried till i was too tired den fall asleep.hais.was thinkin of tt jerk.have i really put this past behind me?now and then when im alone.he's image and name will jus pop out of nowhere..urgh..

till then,
o's result are comin out

evry step i take is to bring myself closer to u.

beautiful words.

went bank with maam wan ing today.she's so nice.bought me a pancake while i was queing fer her.feel myself so lucky to have a manager like her.haha.ok.was setter again today.argh.
oh ya!!!got sch yr book le!!!!!omgosh.simply love it!!got a few my pics!!ehehehehe so honoured

best part was the p.o.p and prom night!!!=))

i love my sch!!!!

depression...jus came home from dinner.went to sakura with father's side to eat.buffet.soo mani nice nice food.got takoyaki.unagi.oyster.clams.blah blah.lots of food.ate alot of cheesecake.3 diff kind of chzcake i think.

it's nice having the whole family sitting down havin dinner and talking.haha.hardly get a chance.perhaps 3 or 4 times a yr only.

hais..depression ever aft i saw tt movie yst night.it was so bloody and sadist.it's abt cops trying to nab this super baddie fat guy.but in the end 4 out of 5 policemen died.3 was being slashed evrywhere and the throat.one was pushed down from the building.

OMG!it was so damn blooody and gruesome.orgh..love tt guy who was kena pushed down.he's got the manly look,6 pac..omg=))jus my kind of dream guy!!orgh..so in luv with him=))

till then
he's my dream guy=))

heyos!
love work today!
forced myself to wake up at 8 today..
erm.but woke up at 8.01
haha.
went work..saw a few old workin frens
haha..during break drank only soup with tracy
in the end sir raymond gave us a pack of breakfast
OMg!!customer dun wan le
so we eat loh!
ahahaha.so feng fu
+extra thick bread with chz and ham
+egg
+sausage
aft worked shared a plate of black pep sea pas with tracy
+extra pasta
woah..it was soooO nice
ended our meal with a single scoop ice cream
tracy took double
haha.had alot of fun today
like...
-putting ice inside tracy's shirt.AHAHAHA
-hearing sir raymond say ghost story
-eating so much nice food!!=))
-getting ang pao frm swensens

best moments in swensens=))

ate steamboat for dinner..so full now
jus saw fireworks..frm msia
haha.nice..
family watching movie now..
yay!tmr no work.rest

happy new yr!!!home sweet home morning..father's side came to our hse firstthen...went fu hui bai bai..proceeded to mum's side for lunchwent to guanyin temple to praywent back to popo hse again for dinneraunt fly to indiamum made a extra BIG yushengate steamboat..din eat much todayhums.abit of flu alr.ayess..tmr still got workshall slp early.chow

nEW yR eVe
...spring cleaning...nthg much to clean actually
jus some dust to remove and things to arrange
slept at 3 plus ystwatched memoirs of a geisha
itsta nice movie
love the eye colour of zhang and chiyo
sians...feel like slping now
will be gg out to have reunion dinner with.
.eh papa side relatives
tmr will be a BIG RED DAY!
shucks..argh!!!hate it.it always happen on impt day
will be wearing white base skirt tmr sia
damn it..

heheh..got the online test from big bird...quite fun sia...

mine was...
brown
You're brown, a credible, stable color that's reminiscent of fine wood, rich leather, and wistful melancholy. Most likely, you're a logical, practical person ruled more by your head than your heart. With your inquisitive mind and insatiable curiosity, you're probably a great problem solver. And you always gather all of the facts before coming to a timely, informed decision. Easily intrigued, you're constantly finding new ways to challenge your mind, whether it's by reading the newspaper, playing a trivia game, or composing a piece of music. Brown is an impartial, neutral color, which means you tend to see the difference between fact and opinion easily and are open to many points of view. Trustworthy and steady, you really are a brown at heart.

haha...

till then..
CNy is coming
and i feel nthg...

im so bloated..worked OT today.12-11...wahaha.leg pain.went break with maam wan inghaha.2% of stress.aftall she's a manager.till 11..suddenly got earthquake!!the ice cream.wahahas!!! shared with wee ming and augustine3 of us practically almost ate up the whole earthquaketook home some baked rice.potatos and soup home.wha...today so shiok!!wahahs.heehee.simply love today!!!had a chance to work with ******..heeheee only diyanah and me knowalso with my look-alike sis (leonice)simple love today!!!=))

hmms.sudden depression now.feelin so lonely now..seems like we're drifting further and further..u say u're always bz..u say im thinkin too muchdon wanna lose a fren like u (:hais.the past has become a historysoon...dere'll be nthg.

till then i miss yew...
and u...

arh. . . stomachache. . .
went chinatown with yiying today aft workso hungry...
went to eat at tt food centre...looked ard for clothes and shoeslots of CNY wear...haha.both of us actually wanted to buy a pair of shoessame colour but diff pattern...
but in the end mama say the shop owner not honest..so neh buy.ayess..the shoe was really v nice and sweet.nthg much today..tired..

i think im still missin u

Sianx…practically working the whole week.did OT yst.almost had to do Ot today.but cas got cca orientation.so went back sch for np.sooO…loyal.haha.aft np went back to cp eat dinner with yiying an djoyce.went metro to look for new yr clothes.haha.saw this dress.so so lah..but the price wise…erm…ex abit.haha.went to try the dress…had 2 pretty ladies following me in the fitting room…-_-“aiyOs!!!yiying ah!!!so troublesome….3 person in a dressing rm abit wad alr…still tok so loud..”mux like this”..”cannot”…”stuff something inside!!”waliew ah…so pai seh when we came out of the fitting room….moral of the story…nv let yiying go into the fitting rm with u!

Till then…united we stand divided we fall.
miss those times we had tgt big bird….haiz…

grr....screwed screwed!!
o's result is like coming...

im very EXTREMLY Scared!!

scared of seeing my bad results...
more afraid of accepting the fact tt i've mugged for months and tt is the kind of result i got.
scared of dissapointing my parents
me myself and i
friends
teachers
evrybody.....
then i'll be faceless

evrybody will be cheering over their results....then...ARGH!!!
i'll be moaning abt where to go....

hais...then evryone will be saying...it's alrite.no use cryiing over spilled milk...
and blah blah blah...urghss

i don wan tt to happen!!!!

i'll practically die!!!
die over seeing and taking my results

i cant take this anymore

keeping me in suspense

wad for?!?!
when i know i'll do badly and my inner inner internal cells are telling me it won't happen!?
wad for thinking pessismistic!!
wad for thinking optimistic!!
omgosh!!!!!
im thinking of gg to temple and pray...omg....
urgh....o's result
is worst than taking the papers itself
seeing and hearing the principal toking abt the oevralls...huw many passes and failures(touchwood)
and seeing yr form tcher giving out saying CONGRATULATIONS!!!or DON BE TOO UPSET!!!
pls standby tissue boxes for me...
morever im like index no. 41?!!!
last one to recieve...the stress and pressure wld be like...omg
it;s not a gd feeling mann....


im dying...of results pressure

back from sec 1 orientation camp!=))

1st day
woke up late..oOpx...went to sch.the usual things...
bag check,speeches,area prep
quite a tension btwn snr instructors and instructor
saww...back to sch as SI'sheh.snr instructor not station inspector.
hahaha.the ice breaker was boring...
had ij trail aft lunch!!yesh!!!was with dan at lim bo seng there.
station master.hehs!brought my digi cam there.knew it'll be boring
but..it's really boring having to sit there for like 3 hours
plus plus
brrs...self entertained ourselves.haha.took alot of pictures!
pretty pics
then saw some ppl eating ice cream
so dan went up to ask them where did dey bot the ic
haha.yup.so i went to buy.ate ice cream and took pics
spent most of our time thinking wad poist to make and taking pics
waited and waited for campers to come...
(maybe our station was really ulu pandan eh)
lol.went back sch for dinner...then i forgotten wad we did...
went home.be back in sch tmr

2nd day
woke up late agian!but the late was still acceptable
prepared for ij trail again.it was raining...so our station chged to esplanade underpass
went there with dan
so boring....not much ppl except for a few homeless ppl slping there
and...2guys skateboarding
sat there for very long!!!!argh!!!butt pain.suddenly had this idea of borrowing tt 2 guys skateboard to play
haha.yea..borrowed one of dem's one.and sort of learn
it was horrible.haha.dan n i tried to skate but most of the time...almost fell down.
the feeling was scary.haha
ohh..and my skateboard almost hit a slping man's head!
waited and waited...sian...then a grp of srjc jc2 ppl came
they were also having orientation camp
looked at us as if we were also part of the homeless grp
haha.then finally campers came(it was rainin heavily)
did the activities..blah blah blah
heard some jc2 ppl saying :"pri sch!"wakao eh...
so i guess they are in sec sch eh
hahas..aft they left..more srjc ppl came...practically the whole cohort of them
so dan and i left too!
went citylink the 7-eleven there
bought gulp..mashed pot.burger
went back to the underpass there...ate...so we waited and waited...but no body came
then a grp of phoncho ppl came and dan saw
a figure tt look like yar hui
omg.she waved at her and said yar hui!
i too thought tt it was yar hui but it was some jc2 ppl
omg.was so maluated.
went back to our pillar..no face
went back to sch for lunchthen go back to ij trail again
but it was rainin damn heavily
so ij trail will onli be held at chijmes
was with dan and al-lene at gate of hope
almost typed gate of hip hop
haha.dan and i sneaked off to raffles city marketplace to buy food again
bought twisties and kinder bueno
haha.jus realised every session we go
we'll defintely buy someting.
back to sch...rainin...so campfire will be wet weather
saw lots of other SI...was very happy.
hugged and all
evryone was so happy to see one another
campfire...it was so boring!!!
the atmosphere was so dead!
it was only the SI and instructors tt were high
borin boring boring!!!
untill the last part!when the instructors danced and our SI item!
heh...went up to the "staged"sang caritas share the love...sang deep deep(awwss..love tt song)and the last part....
we all got into a solemn mood....
all SI's stand in a str8 row
our right hands were all "cup"over our hearts
and we sang the sch song....was so touched...
then cried for the next few minutes...
the atmosphere was so touching..it was really very heart suaning
the bondness we had tgt as a SI's...
the friendship we made throughout those camps
.....hais...i dunno huw to put it in words
u will have to only experience it yrself.
then u will understand this kinda feelin
aft campfire...SI's all went down canteen..i ate alot.
then we used mat's digi cam
took many many lame lame pics agian!
but it was very nice
haha.aft tt played some stupid games called "black magic","fuzzy wazzy","what's next"grr!!ok.guess i jus have to admit im stupid and have low EQ and IQ!!!!
took very very long to understand it.
the game was lame pls!
hhaah.bathe at 2 am plus...water was soso cold!
went to canteen to slp aftwards
gathered a few benches and tgt we made a "king size bed!!"
hahah.it was very cold throughout the whole night
had only the sch pullover
close to 6...went back to class room to slp.
till almost 10 then wake up!!feel so guilty
...bad SI's...went home aft eating breakfast and sleep...

hais...miss everyone
rreally regretted not gg fer 1st 3 months MI....
=((
regret regret regret....
nthg much at work 2dae...
except..a pair of lesbians
they were kissing like in public!
hello...
**disgusted
humph.dey haf simply thrown the women's society face!
oh ya.seems like infant day today
so mani children
hahas
brrss...weather's so cold nowadays
sumthings wrong with the weather ya.
haveta go offline...
dad will scold...

chow...

yox!dan's currently at my hse
or shld i say beside me
wel....yst...
went for np trng
sians...did pioneering till hand rope burn
pain pain
went cp with dan aftwards to popular and top up ez-link
met up with hwee and fang
was at 3rd flr of cp and i saw my cousin on the 1st flr...haha
den dan shouted "wei ming"!!!!omg-_-""""
cccccooooooaaaa!!!
went city hall cas someone jus had to colle tc her $$$
gosh and we saw xie lao shi(hot)
went ps to buy present for sand
bought a cake from secret recipe
a card from precious thots
a big mug from...forgotten...
haha
hungry so went to long johns to eat
COA!!!centre of attraction
we were toking abt b*****so loudly
and hwee was showing where was it
there was a grp of guys beside us
and they were like...we were like???
omg.so mulauted
went basement...
hwee bought rou gan from mei zhen xiang?!
and 4 of us were like sua gu sampling the rou gan
went to buy gelato..dan jus had to say the choc look like shit!
haha.the salesperson jus =) and the other diao her i think
for me....bot the anderson's ice cream...cool
the uncle was very friendly...chatted with us abt our comments on the ice cream

it was rainin...walked to the 147 bus stop
ran aft the bus...4 ij gals in uni?
in the bus...COA agian...went up and found out there was no sit
were seperated in the end
knock my head against the air con
stupid bus
*ouch pain pain
created quite a commotion up stairs
didi'nt know where to stop
so dan brought us down
fine...COA again
some familar guy boarded the bus
saw him and asked hwee who is he
then dan was like ah-meng!!
jia jie
shouted across frm the back to the front...
the whole bus ppl was practically like...nvm
alighted the bus...and dan jus have to shout her hp no. to jia jie inside the bus!
wonder wad the bus ppl thinkin?
haha stopped at serangoon
time was like 10 plus le
went 7-eleven to buy lighter for one pathetiq candle(sand's cake)
COA again.haha.wads 4 ij gals in sch uni doing in 7-11 buyin a $0.80 lighter in the middle of the night!haha.
wanted to walked to sand hse.but time was earlier..so went to one near by kopitiam!
haha.drank milo.COA again.haha.can u imagine 4 ij gals in kopitiam at 11 plus?!!?!
crazy...took mani photos there with my digi cam.
took a bus to sand's hse...
waited for sand to come...haha.
the bus-stop practically became our party place
celebrated for sand...took mani pics at the bus stop
left at 12plus am...haha.thankfully din miss the bus....43
it was rainin.and the bus was suppose to turn into the intchange
but...haha.asked the bus driver do us a favour drive us to the next bus stop.so...
haha
he was kind lah.thx!=))

dan stayed overnight at my hse..
cook mee in like 2am plus...
shared one bed...**heh heh
but i went to sleep on the floor halfway
went back to the bed again in the morning...
haha

work was hell today...but ate alot aft work..
cookies n cream ice cream...salmon..fries...soup...
blah blahblah

np rawks!

finally get to use comp!!!
ok...lotsa thing to say....shall summarised it
lets start with today
-ate the fortune meal?!
-i burned my hand by (tomato clam chowder) soup.darn!
-today work was stress
-cousin and da yi zhang came=))
-WORK WAS LIKE WAR!!!
-finally peace....
-thank god no runaway bill
-went home...saw someone...jerk
-spent some fun time msging each other.thks dan!!!=))


yst....
-was the setter
-burned by the stupid bake rice
-overall fun!=))
-ate mango ice cream
-thank god no runaway bill

alritess.yay im so excited.tmr's plan...
-go np trng
-secret
-secret
-secret
-not for u to know!

hahahss...anw dan's coming my hse to saty tmr.hoope the stayover will be funn!!!

till then
see ya jerk.im not upset at all

30 dec
aft work rushed to johor alone.haah was quite fun actually.reached woodland int finding for the bus to johor.lol.finally saw it.then there was a aunty beside me.haha.asked me whether does this bus goes to msia.obviously i said yes.haha.then we chatted.found out tt she's a s'porean and is gg home to her aunt's hse.k.she's weird.told me tt one s'porean business man was killed there.and so on.haha.but she was quite nice.asked me to becareful.becareful of robbers.
at night..ate seafood.wha.nice.it was beside another small restuarant called sampan cuisine.there was live singing.cool...sang chinese song..all nice nice one.hahs.went back to hotel.it was like hdb flats.except tt it was round and enclosed.and on top was alot alot alot of balloons.beautiful

31dec
shopped.first dad was ready to park his car.then suddenly some ppl jus went into the parking lot...horn himed.he told us there's still alot of parking lot!!wakao eh!!!...then our trolley was taken by some ppl and da things inside was put into a basket...WTH!!back to s'p...dad drove me to dan's hse.HEHS!!we're gonna countdown!!!
-we saw fireworks
-watch hollow man
-watch jian dan ren wu
-sang new yr songs
-sreamed out of the window 2 times
-dan lost her one slipper in the van
-it most prob drop out
-she had to hop home
-hahahahahs
-i flew off in the van and slide.funni ya
-went online till 5am plus
-made sandy say i love zeng zy
-slept at 5.30 am

dan's family was nice.very...erm...ya nice.dunno how to say.haha.went home sleep till 4.then faster chg for work...boring life mann


till then...
i miss sch life